Fear walks a half-step behind and clouds of gray gather overhead, and yet I've built a safe place. I embrace bliss and sigh with the contentment that only hot water and steam can bring. Yet I'm scared. Terrified of enough, happy, and falling ... well falling out of control.
The bridge looks so inviting. The dark so familiar. The storm so soothing in it's chaos.
The problem?
Contentment.
I have reached for the light often in the last few days. I have found ways to balance and to accept, and now I'm terrified of falling. My life is working and I'm terrified of it breaking. The more I invest - the better life gets - the more I have to lose.
So I have 'a' plan, and it's wobbly and it is fluid, and in motion, and will probably grow, change and adapt as it needs to.
A few highlights:
A few highlights:
Finding mantras, quotes, and sayings that I know to be true.
Being kind to myself, and being brave and being honest with what I want, and what I'm willing to do to get it.
Making new connections, and friends while keeping and treasuring the old.
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Love me anyway, and do it loudly.
- K
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